spinning round again.

water, tom waits, kitten.

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 17:11:37 GMT

that's what my morning consists of.

i think i'm in love.

and i'm actually being productive at school.

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 18:25:25 GMT

i haven't even thought about livejournal in an eternity.

college rocks. boys suck. and rock.. a lot. life is hectic.

merry fucking christmas.

compare & contrast.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 09:09:36 GMT

[I am incredibly bored and nerdy.. found this old survey
I took over a year ago.. and now am comparing those
answers to the ones I have now. .. Basically, I have
nothing to do this late at night ..]

Time started:
-- 2:20 1:51 am

First Name:
-- Merrill

Single or Taken:
-- Single taken

Sex:
-- Female

Birthday:
-- July 17

Siblings:
-- 2 sisters

Eye color:
-- Blue grey

Shoe size:
-- 8

height:
-- 5'4"

Innie or Outie:
-- Innie

What are you wearing right now:
-- Jeans, T-shirt, Sweatshirt, Socks shorts, t-shirt, underwear

Righty or lefty:
-- Righty

Can you make a dollar in change right now:
-- Yes, more than that. i don't think so, just did the coinstar thing.

-------------------------------------------------------------
Relationships
-------------------------------------------------------------

Who are your closest friends:
-- Lillie, Alex, Matt, Austin, Quintin morgan, quintin, lillie.

Do you have a BF or GF?
--- No yes.

Best place to go for a date:
-- The fair is pretty cool for a date. not the fair, fo sho.

----------------------------------------------------------------------
Favorites...
----------------------------------------------------------------------

Favorite place to shop:
-- Zumiez or Hot Topic urban outfitters.

Favorite kind of pants:
-- Levis jeans.

Color:
-- Grey

Number(s):
-- 7

Animal:
-- Penguin kittens.

Drink:
-- Vodka :P juice.

Sport(s):
-- Tennis (it's the only one I'll watch)

Fast-Food Place:
-- Burgerville

Month:
-- August september.

Movie:
-- Garden State, Donnie Darko v for vendetta.

Juice:
-- Grape cran-raspberry.

Finger:
-- Ring finger

Breakfast:
-- Waffles or omelettes.

Favorite cartoon character(s):
-- Gir and Zim!

--------------------------------------------------------------
Have you ever
----------------------------------------------------------

Given anyone a bath:
-- No

Smoked:
-- Yes

Bungee:
-- No

Made yourself throw-up:
-- No

Gone skinny dipping:
-- Yes

Eaten a hot dog:
-- Yes

Put your tongue on a frozen pole:
-- No

Loved someone so much it made you cry?
-- Yes

Broken a bone:
-- No

Played truth or dare:
-- Yes

Been in a police car:
-- Yes

Been on a plane:
-- Yes

Been in a sauna:
-- Yes

Been in a hot tub:
-- Yes

Swam in the ocean:
-- Yes

Fallen asleep in school:
-- Yes

Ran away:
-- No

Broken someone's heart:
-- Yes

Cried when someone died:
-- Yes

Cried in school:
-- Yes

Fallen off your chair:
-- Yes

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?:
-- Yes

Saved e-mails:
-- Yes

Fallen for one of your best friends?:
-- Yes

Made out with JUST a friend?:
-- Yes

Used someone:
-- No yes.

Been cheated on?:
-- Yes

----------------------------------------------------------------
What is...
----------------------------------------------------------------

Your good luck charm:
-- I have two lucky dollars my 25 cent ring.

Best song you ever heard:
-- Which To Bury, Us Or The Hatchet by Relient K as of right now, 'i wish i was a punk rocker' by sandi thom.

Stupidest thing you have ever done:
-- No comment. will.

What's your room like:
-- Full of stuff getting emptier.

Last thing you said:
--- Yea, but it smells like poop. 'what did you just say?' to my sleeping sister.

What is beside you:
-- My purse my laptop.

Last thing you ate:
-- Spinach Parmesan bagel banana split.

What kind of shampoo do you use?:
-- Pantene bed head dumb blonde.

Best thing(s) that has happened to you this year:
-- I don't know morgan.

Worst thing that has happened to you this year:
-- I don't know matt leaving.

----------------------------------------
Have you had..
----------------------------------------

Chicken pox:
-- Yes

Sore Throat:
-- Yes

Stitches:
-- No

Broken nose:
-- No

----------------------------------------
Do You
----------------------------------------

Believe in love at first sight:
-- No

Like picnics:
-- Yes

Like school:
-- Sorta college is going to rock my socks.

---------------------------------------
Would you/what is
---------------------------------------

Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000 dollars:
-- No

If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you
-- You morgan.

Who was the last person that called you:
-- Quintin morgan.

Who was the last person you slow danced with:
-- Lillie

What makes you laugh the most?:
-- When I hang out with Lill, Alex, and Matt alex's stoned face.

What makes you smile?:
-- Donuts my ~~kitten~~ tiger.

--------------------------------------
Who is the last person
--------------------------------------

You yelled at:
-- My sister morgan.

Who broke your heart:
-- No comment.

Who told you they loved you:
-- My dad my momma.

Who is your loudest friend?:
-- Justin

-- ---------------------------------------------------------
Do you/Are You:
------------------------------------------------------------

Do you like filling these out:
-- No

Do you wear glasses or contacts:
-- Yes contacts.

Do you like yourself:
-- Sometimes

Do you get along with your family:
-- Mostly

Stolen anything over $50:
-- No

Obsessive?:
-- No sometimes.

Compulsive?:
-- No sometimes.

Anorexic?:
-- No

Suicidal?:
-- No

--------------------------------
Love Life
-------------------------------

Do you have a crush?
-- Yes, a few one.

If so, do they know?
-- Probably yes.

Have you truly told them how you feel, face to face?
-- No yes.

How did they respond?:
-- They didn't by kissing me.

What is so great about them?:
-- Shut up everything.

Have you kissed anyone?
-- Yes

Coffee, tea:
-- Coffee

Phone or in person:
-- In person

Are you oldest, middle, youngest or only child:
-- Oldest

Indoor or outdoor:
-- Outdoor usually

--------------------------------------------------
Final questions
-----------------------------------------------------------

How many people are you sending this to:
-- None

what are you listening to right now:
-- Poets of Fall by Max Payne 'have you got it in you?' by imogen heap.

What did you do yesterday:
-- Helped my dad remodel the bathroom drove around town with morgan.

Where do you want to get married?
-- On the top of a skyscraper beach.

If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?
-- My hair my tummy.

Are you a good driver?
-- Yes

Are you a good singer:
-- I'm pretty good

What do you dream about:
-- Weird stuff fucking.

End Time:
-- 2:43 2:06 am

yarr.

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 00:03:26 GMT

A - AVAILABLE?: No.

B - BEST FRIEND? Lillie & Morgan.

C - CRUSH?: Morgy.

D - DOGS NAME? Cat's? Jodie, Splash, Phoebe.

E - Oh yeah, baby.. gimme that E. ;)

F - FAVORITE COLOR(S)?: Grey & blue.

G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS?: Worms, definitely.

H - HOME STATE?: Washington.

I - INSTRUMENT?: Violin.

J - JUICE?: Cran-raspberry or apple grape.

K - KIND OF MUSIC? Alternative/Indie rock.

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE?: From Madrid to Barcelona.

M - MILK FLAVOR?: Uh, plain old white milk.

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS?: Two.

O- ONE WISH?: For a car.

P - PHOBIA/FEARS?: Machetes, spiders, being alone, the dark.

Q - FAVORITE QUOTE?: 'I laugh, but inside I know it's true - being in love it totally punk rock.'

R - REASON TO SMILE?: Peace.

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD?: The Zelda theme song.

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP TODAY: 11:30 am.

U - UNKNOWN FACT ABOUT ME?: I've got tits.

V - VEGETABLE YOU DON'T LIKE?: Radishes.

W- WORST HABIT?: Not confronting people.

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD?: Ovaries.

Y - YUMMY FOOD?: Baklava.

Z - ZODIAC SIGN?: Cancer.

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 20:55:09 GMT

haha, wow..
i was looking through old entries.

'5 months from now, i'll be gone.'

....

3 weeks from now, i'll be gone.

and i was shocked back then..

just for now.

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 20:52:34 GMT

you know i might start using livejournal avidly again.
perhaps.
maybe i'm just excited about being in a wireless internet
environment right now, but..

i also did upload a recent picture - since the other one
was from months and months ago. 2 haircuts ago and at least
ten haircolors. :]

so, here i am..
for now.

I DO QUIZZES 'CAUSE THAT IS MY MENTAL CAPACITY RIGHT NOW.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 03:46:01 GMT

1. How tall are you barefoot?
five foot four inches

2. What's your full name?
merrill suzanne taylor

3. Are you gay?
no, maybe someday

4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
borderline

5. How many letters are in your crush's name?
six

6. What do you think of a hot dog?
not much, unless it's a turkey dog.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
god rest ye merry gentlemen, i dont know why.. just like the sound of it.

8.What do you like to drink in the morning?
coffee

9. Do you do push-ups?
no

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
yeah

11. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
yes

12. Do you like the rain?
not usually

13. Do you have A.D.D.?
no

16. Full initials?
MST

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
1. i don't wanna think about doing anything.
2. my cat is fat.
3. i want morgan here.

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought in the past week.
1. new shoes
2. ice cream
3. books

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink.
1. juice
2. milk
3. coffee
4. alcohol
5. water

20. What time did you wake up today?
10:30

21. Can you spell?
yes sir

22. Current worry?
being bored and hot all night

23. Current hate?
not seeing my friends

24. Favorite place to be?
your mom's house

25. Least favorite place to be?
your mom's house when your dad is home

26. Where would you like to go?
spain

27. Do you own slippers?
yes

28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
oregon or california, with a baby and some bills

29. Do you burn or tan?
tan

30. Yellow or blue?
blue

31. Would you be a pirate?
yes! in an instant.. rob those damn cruise ships

32. Last time your phone rang?
ten minutes ago when morgan called

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
songs i knew back in 6th grade

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
a vampire

35. What's in your pockets right now?
no pockets

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
morgan

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
little mermaid

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
ovarian cyst

39. What is/was your GPA?
3.4

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
3

41. Who is your loudest friend?
lillie, :)

42. Who is your most quiet friend?
probably matt

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
yes

44. Do you wish on stars?
no

45. What is your favorite book?
please don't kill the freshmen

46. What song did you last hear?
something on KINK

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
tnt by acdc... nah, i dont know

49. What were you doing at 12am last night?
sleeping

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
damn, we gotta go.

yeah, yeah, yeah.

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 21:59:42 GMT

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
'For me personally, as much as I don't understand my mom and..'

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What's there?
a Kink Live CD.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
World Cup soccer.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
1:30 pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
2:55 pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my mom blasting music, 'ohhh yeah.'

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
10 minutes ago, I got out of the car and walked to my house.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
this survey.

9. What are you wearing?
perv.. tanktop and shorts.

10. Did you dream last night?
yes, about getting locked in my house for drinking alcohol and Matt coming back home and kittens.

11. When did you last laugh?
just a little bit ago when my mom was dancing.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
paints and old embroidery things.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
my mom dancing, Morgan.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
i think it is the most fantastic thing i've done in a long time, actually.

15. What is the last film you saw?
pirates of the caribbean: dead man's chest.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you do?
go into a shock-induced coma.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
considering you are an online survey, you probably don't know anything about me, so hi.. my name is merrill.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you change?
there would be no hate.

19. Do you like to dance?
yar.

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Gwendolyn.

21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Jeremy.

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
fo' sho'.

23. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates?
nothing, it won't happen.

i never even think about livejournal anymore except when i come across these stupid surveys... fuck.

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 23:23:26 GMT

How old do you feel:
I feel 17. I guess, maybe 16.

Where were you on September 11th, 2001:
At school. I had no idea anything had happened until kids in the halls started screaming "WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE!"

What do you believe is the meaning of life:
Everyone has a different meaning. Mine is love or peace.

What is your favorite thing to cook:
Top ramen.

You have only a dollar to your name...what do you buy:
Food.

What was your last meal:
Bagel with cream cheese and lox and crisscut fries from Carl's Jr.

What is the youngest age you have memories of:
I remember being three because I know my sister wasn't born yet when I had chicken pox and threw up all over.

What is your favorite thing in the world:
Words and friends.

Have you ever punched someone on purpose:
How do you punch someone by accident? (Yes.)

What living person would you want to meet:
Dalai Lama.

What dead person would you want to know:
My great-grandpa, Dalton Trumbo.

Where in the world would you live if you could:
California, somewhere sunny, but not so crowded.

Who has had the most influence on you (good or bad):
Lillie Scribner.

What is your favorite dessert:
Cheesecake.

Can you make cookies from scratch:
Yes.

Night out or night in:
Out, out, out!

Single forever with a great family or no family and your soulmate:
I'd pick the soulmate. There's a deeper kind of happiness you find with lovers.

What is your favorite scented candle:
Fuck if I know.

If you could live in a store which one would it be:
Target.

Can you eat a dozen donuts in one sitting:
No way.

Your favorite word:
Of the moment? Euphoria.

Have you ever read/tried to read the Bible:
No.

Who do you dislike most in the world:
Hate.

Where is the farthest you've ever been from home:
Barcelona.

What song do you identify with most:
Roughdraft by Yellowcard.

Which movie do you wish was your life:
Ocean's Eleven.

What is your ideal ice cream creation:
Chocolate and raspberry swirls.

What is your favorite thing to do:
Anything with people. I'm a people addict.

What is your favorite junk food:
Ice cream.

Have you ever gone to the bathroom in front of someone:
Yeah.

What toy have you always wanted and never gotten:
Hungry Hungry Hippos.

What item could you not go without during the day:
Bra.

Do you consider yourself a smart person:
Mhmm.

How old were you when life was the hardest?:
Sixteen.

Do you curse in front of family:
Not usually.

What is your favorite tv show ever:
The Simpsons.

Have you ever passed out:
Yeah, a few times.

Have you ever slapped yourself in the face:
Yeah.

Have you been in a car accident that was your fault:
No.

Favorite line from a song:
"I fall asleep with my friends around me/Only place I know I feel safe/I'm gonna call this home."

Favorite line from a movie:
"Noo, I don't think about fucking my family. That's gross."

What do you do when the power goes out:
Sit. Wait.

Sun, 14 May 2006 16:12:41 GMT

mother's day, happy.

i'm so bad at blogging these days.

too much going on to record it.

peace.

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 02:01:16 GMT

If you comment...

1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you should post this on your journal so you can do the same for other people.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 06:51:32 GMT

Hellodarkisland (10:41:31 PM): 5 months from now, i'll be gone

oh wow. shit. wtf. me? are you sure? ...wow.

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 08:03:46 GMT

hellodarkisland challenges color_me_happy_

It\'s a draw!

Start a fight

Results

razorwirerosary	Vs	gabigirl21
razorwirerosary wins!
razorwirerosary	Vs	pink_perdyness
pink_perdyness wins!
lovely_ugly_me	Vs	pink_perdyness
pink_perdyness wins!
venuspanties	Vs	pink_perdyness
pink_perdyness wins!
blacklightrock	Vs	pink_perdyness
pink_perdyness wins!
zackass88	Vs	pink_perdyness
pink_perdyness wins!
burn_the_walls	Vs	pink_perdyness
pink_perdyness wins!
kjfbljkadbnf	Vs	pink_perdyness
pink_perdyness wins!
gefrorenesfeue	Vs	pink_perdyness
gefrorenesfeue wins!
gefrorenesfeue	Vs	duckfast
duckfast wins!
rstrantgunfight	Vs	duckfast
rstrantgunfight wins!
rstrantgunfight	Vs	grneyedsenorita
rstrantgunfight wins!
rstrantgunfight	Vs	tieittothetree
rstrantgunfight wins!
rstrantgunfight	Vs	speckled_clouds
speckled_clouds wins!
grape_soda	Vs	speckled_clouds
speckled_clouds wins!
slow_night	Vs	speckled_clouds
speckled_clouds wins!
magnax	Vs	speckled_clouds
speckled_clouds wins!
nelfers	Vs	speckled_clouds
speckled_clouds wins!
rashumbabean	Vs	speckled_clouds
rashumbabean wins!
rashumbabean	Vs	crazyasscanadia
rashumbabean wins!
rashumbabean	Vs	yogurtfromhell
rashumbabean wins!
rashumbabean	Vs	omgg_kelly
rashumbabean wins!
rashumbabean	Vs	buttpirate666
rashumbabean wins!
rashumbabean	Vs	dancrgurrl515
dancrgurrl515 wins!
doonas	Vs	dancrgurrl515
dancrgurrl515 wins!
insomnia4u	Vs	dancrgurrl515
dancrgurrl515 wins!
teh_saint	Vs	dancrgurrl515
teh_saint wins!
teh_saint	Vs	crmdelacreme
crmdelacreme wins!

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 17:33:04 GMT

you should go here :

http://kevan.org/johari?name=hellodarkisland

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 06:06:31 GMT

congratulate me.

i got a letter of acceptance from Evergreen today.

aaaaaannnnnndddddd,

not only that, but because of my "academic achievement" thus far, i've also been awarded the Scholastic Achievement Award which is worth $600 towards my tuition.

wooo woooo!

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 06:04:23 GMT

Click here.
Take the quiz.
Post your results.
1) Would kjfbljkadbnf and magnax look good together? yes
2) Are burn_the_walls and gefrorenesfeue married? they could be, but i doubt they even know eachother
3) Where would teh_saint most like to visit? space
4) Where was rashumbabean born? right here
5) Is doonas 1337? haha mayybe
6) What would slow_night give teh_saint for his/her birthday? a blowjob
7) One quality you find attractive in color_me_happy_? her sense of style
8) What flavor of jello would color_me_happy_ be? blue raspberry
9) What is gingertwinkle allergic to? boys
10) What do you agree with slow_night about? very little
11) Has grape_soda dyed their hair? yes
12) If gefrorenesfeue and slow_night were siamese twins, where would they be joined? the ass
13) Is rashumbabean a college student? yes
14) What animal should rashumbabean be combined with? a lioness
15) Have you ever dated teh_saint? nope
16) Are kjfbljkadbnf and magnax going steady? no
17) If doonas commanded an army, who would be his/her followers? everyone with common sense
18) How long would gefrorenesfeue dating slow_night last? 2 days
19) If rashumbabean were hanging off a cliff, what would kjfbljkadbnf do? ninja tricks to save her
20) What is grape_soda's favorite game? rugby
21) Is rashumbabean a high school student? no
22) Which of your friends should color_me_happy_ go out with? none of them!
23) gefrorenesfeue's hair color? brown
24) Does gefrorenesfeue have a big secret? yes
25) What do you disagree with color_me_happy_ about? stupid stuff
26) Have you flirted with gingertwinkle? all the time
27) What languages does gefrorenesfeue speak? english and german(?)
28) Did magnax break up with you? fuck you
29) Would kjfbljkadbnf and gefrorenesfeue make a good couple? no
30) Do gefrorenesfeue and teh_saint go to the same school? no
31) What is gefrorenesfeue's favorite food? portugese salmon
32) How many monkeys could magnax fight at once and win against? thirty thousand
33) What word best describes gefrorenesfeue? silly
34) Would you ever date kjfbljkadbnf? probably not
35) Would burn_the_walls go out with rashumbabean? no
36) What song/movie would you recommend to rashumbabean? i'm sure she's seen/watched anything i would recommend
37) What video game does kjfbljkadbnf remind you of? none
38) Would color_me_happy_ be a better ninja or pirate? pirate
39) What rank would color_me_happy_ have in a giant robot army? minion
40) Which president would slow_night be likely to idolize? i don't know...
41) What would doonas do differently in your shoes? he'd go to san fransisco more
42) Does rashumbabean have a dog? no
43) Do you think gefrorenesfeue is hot? yes
44) If slow_night took over the world, who would be happy? him
45) Is slow_night athletic? not really
46) What would you do if you found out color_me_happy_ has a crush on you? be grossed out - she's my sister!
47) Does teh_saint drink? yes
48) What is kjfbljkadbnf's shoe size? 2
49) If magnax took over the world, who would suffer? stupid people
50) How long have you known magnax? a little over a year
51) What planet should razorwirerosary be from? neptune
52) What color should rashumbabean dye their hair? red brown
53) Does kjfbljkadbnf go to your school? yes
54) Are doonas and razorwirerosary going out? noo
55) Is burn_the_walls in a relationship? i dont think so
56) When did you last call magnax? a long time ago
57) If kjfbljkadbnf was a superhero, who would be his/her archnemesis? god
58) Is teh_saint dead sexy? totally
59) What mental disorder does doonas remind you of? sex
60) grape_soda's eye color? brown

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 05:42:43 GMT

I don't know what I'm doing or what I should do or what I will do or what I have been doing. I don't know what to believe or which side of me to agree with. I don't know why I'm always trapped in these cyclical conflicts or why I always care so much about everyone else. I don't know why I'm so shallow sometimes, why I think so highly of myself sometimes and others I can't even stand being me. I don't understand why I have to be so indecisive and thoughtless and thoughtful and selfish and selfless and repetitive. I don't know why I can't figure any goddamned thing out. I don't know what I want or who I am. I go through my days surrounded by people who consistently support and adore me and yet when I come home I feel amazingly empty and alone. I'm never happy with what I have even when, especially when, it's what is best for me. I contradict myself and lie to myself and try to make myself think that in the end it will all be okay. I hurt. Inside and out.

Because copying Mark is my favorite pasttime.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 05:18:45 GMT

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Boobs!

Snow White's coffin was made of boobs.
Europe is the only continent that lacks boobs.
Boobs will often glow under UV light.
Birds do not sleep in boobs, though they may rest in them from time to time.
Some hotels in Las Vegas have boobs floating in their swimming pools.
A boobometer is used to measure boobs!
Twenty-eight percent of Microsoft's employees are boobs.
Boobs are worth their weight in gold - literally.
Women shoplift four times more frequently than boobs.
Boobs can give birth ten days after being born, and are born pregnant.

I just love that first one. And the one about hotel swimming pools in Las Vegas.

Oh boobs.

bleck.

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 02:31:58 GMT

if only health were contagious.

just like a match.

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 02:54:38 GMT

if my life was an Itchy and Scratchy cartoon,
i would have a stick of dynamite in my head
right now, exploding my brain into a million
pieces.

i think my mind is giving up on me - that's what
all this shit is. god - i'm going fucking insane.

if you want a straight line - this'd be a good time.

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 04:25:58 GMT

SURVEYS ARE SO BORING!

2006 Survey

1. First thing to eat?
a chunk of ham

2. First drink?
Rockstar w. vodka

3. First thing you said?
"happy new year!"

4. First kiss?
Morgan

5. First phone call?
Austin

6. First person you talked to on an instant messenger?
Austin

7. First game you played?
none yet

8. First song you listened to?
something by Jedi Mind Tricks

9. First hug?
Lillie/Justin

10. First car ride?
with Matt to Lillie's house

11. First movie?
Fast Times at Ridgemont High (or whatever)

12. First musical instrument?
what?

13. First thing you did new years eve after midnight?
threw confetti

14. First thing you did when you woke up new years day?
cuddled up against Morgan

15. First thing you watched on tv?
nothing yet

16. Was this your first survey of 2006??
yes

The poor groom's bride is a whore.

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 02:50:00 GMT

1. what is your middle name?
Suzanne

2. what size is your bed?
twin

3. what are you listening to right now?
"i write sins not tragedies" by panic! at the disco

4. what are the last 2 digits in your phone number?
48 or 47

5. what was the last thing you ate?
peas

6. last person you hugged?
lillie

7. how is the weather right now?
windy, wet

8. who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
alex

9. the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
face

10. do you have a G/F or B/F?
yes

11. do you want children?
yes

12. do you drink?
yeah

13. ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
i remembered some parts

14. what's your favorite color?
grey

15. eye color?
grey blue

17. favorite holiday?
christmas 'cause of the long break that goes along

18. favorite season?
summer

19. ever cried for no reason?
yes

20. last movie you watched?
i watched part of fast times at ridgemont high, or whatever it's called

29. what books are you reading?
found by davy rothbart & tithe by holly black

30. piercing?
ears

31. favorite movie?
garden state or donnie darko

32. favorite college football team?
n/a

33. what were you doing before filling this out?
listening to my new latin pop cds

34. any pets?
3 cats - splash, phoebe, and jodie

35. do u like dogs or cats better?
cats, i think, though i've never had a dog

36. favorite flower?
daisies

37. have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to?
yes haha

38. Have you ever loved someone?
no, i'm a heartless bitch

40. are you still friends with your ex?
most of them

41. have you ever fired a gun?
no

42. do you like to travel by plane?
not really, train is the way to go

43.right- or left-handed?
right

44. if you could be with someone right now who would it be?
morgan :)

45. how many pillows do you sleep with?
two

46. are you missing someone?
yes

47. Do you have a tattoo?
no

48. do you still watch cartoons on saturday morning?
never did

49. are you hiding something from someone?
from everyone

50. do you play an instrument?
violin

Sure, it's not New Year's yet, but whateva.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 19:13:28 GMT

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?:
mary j

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?:
for once, i made a resolution and i kept it. i probably won't make another one

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?:
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?:
yes

5. What countries did you visit?:
none

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?:
my virginity

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?:
June 28 - interesting day

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?:
making a solid group of friends

9. What was your biggest failure?:
not making a move

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?:
illness, no real injury

11. What was the best thing you bought?:
music

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?:
Cameron Matta

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?:
Jason

14. Where did most of your money go?:
food

15. What did you get really excited about?:
hanging out at Frenchmen's with my favorite friends

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?:
BYOB by System of a Down

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder?: definitely happier
II. thinner or fatter?: fatter
III. richer or poorer?: the same most likely

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?:
date

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?:
thinking over things too much

20. How will you be spending Christmas?:
at home, for the first time in like 5 years

21. How did you spend New Years?:
taping photos up to cover my wall

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?:
i fell out of love

23. How many one-night stands?:
two, but they were with the same person - so i guess it's a two-night stand

24. What was your favourite TV program?:
i don't watch a lot of tv, but i fell in love with Grey's Anatomy

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?:
yes, and there are people i hated then and don't hate now

26. What was the best book you read?:
You Remind Me Of You by Eireann Corrigan

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?:
t e c h n o !

28. What did you want and get?:
a later curfew, driver's ed

29. What was your favorite CD of this year?:
Bright Eyes' I'm Wide Awake It's Morning

30. What was your favourite film of this year?:
Motorcycle Diaries

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?:
I turned 17. Lillie, Alex, Austin, Morgan, Garrett, and I went to Frenchmen's for the day. We hung out and ate and playing frisbee in the water. Lill and I went to Denny's for dinner afterwards. It was the best birthday I've had in a while.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?:
probably taking a few more chances

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?:
i was all over the place this year with how i dressed

34. What kept you sane?:
my friends

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?:
Jake Gyllenhaal

36. What political issue stirred you the most?:
i don't remember a specific one, but i was outraged quite a few times with our president

37. Who do you miss?:
Todd, Mike, Kyle

38. Who was the best new person that you met?:
Austin, hands down

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
sometimes there really isn't anything you can do

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"i'm drunk as hell on a piano bench and when i press the keys it all gets reversed, the sound of loneliness makes me happier." -Bright Eyes

Mad Libs

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 21:52:19 GMT

So, I was doing Mad Libs with my sister and being the internet dork I am, I thought 'hey I should post one on livejournal and have people fill it out.' :) So, leave a comment, with the following things and I'll post the Mad Lib using your words. Yay!

-adjective
-adjective
-plural noun
-noun
-noun
-adjective
-noun
-verb
-noun
-room
-verb
-plural noun
-color
-article of clothing
-type of activity
-person in room (female)
-another article of clothing
-celebrity
-person in room (male)
-plural noun
-part of the body
-noun

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 05:00:34 GMT

what am i doing?